We cannot control learning. One cannot control or predict what another learns.  A teacher can bring a lesson to the class, but she cannot upload her thoughts into the student’s brains. What each individual student will take away from the same lesson will be as different and unique as they themselves are. How one processes the information presenting before us, even we ourselves cannot know.
 
I can go into a class thinking today I will learn how correctly to do a body curl, but what I will actually learn in that class I do not actually know, and sometimes do not even come to the realization of said learning perhaps until many years later, if that.
 
Not only does everyone’s brain work differently, but how we relate to something is not dependent on the content or how our brain works, but on our history, our experiences, our own insights.
 
This is why 1000 people can read the same book yet take something very different away from it and what that will be is a mystery to all, Except Allah. He alone knows why He brings the experiences that He does to us. He alone knows why we need those experiences, and He alone knows exactly what we will gain from each and every experience and also when we will gain it. Sometimes it is not till years later that an article finally makes sense to us or becomes “relevant” for us.
 
So not only do we have to trust in every experience brought to us, that there is a reason for it and also trust in the timing of each thing to be necessary and precise; but also, we have to not assume that everyone learnt the same thing from the same lecture, or book or experience. Thus it is a good practice also to hear out what another has to say about a book that you may have already read for yourself.
 
In the same way, every homeopath you will go to, every doctor you will go to, every herbalist you will go to, will all hear and understand different things of and about your health.
 
You can tell the exact same story, in exactly the same words with exactly the same expressions undertones etc to 50 homeopaths and they will all take way something different from your story; like in a student clinic setting for example. Each will pick up on different things based on their understanding, their experiences and their insights, (and mind you, not their understanding of the art of homeopathy, rather their understanding of you and your story! Their understanding, thus use of homeopathy is an entirely different aspect).
 
That said, not only what someone picks up on is different, but actually, with each individual homeopath you may go to, you will express your story in a slightly different way. Why, because of our gut connection. Our gut is a fascinating thing, it eludes us of things that we are not aware of, it conveys things that words cannot, it inspires in us ideas that we did not know existed.
 
When we sometimes meet someone, without quite knowing how, we know that this person will understand me when I say this. We may barely know this person, like a homeopath we have not visited before, or an acquaintance at work whom we have a polite relationship with, not a deep connection with; but we somehow unknowingly why, just know that this person will understand me when I say this. This is our gut connection, our aura’s connecting, our energies exchanging. Sometimes a client may be trying to explain to me their timeline or their feelings, and without them knowing my timeline/experiences they strike a chord with mine. They say something which I know exactly, because I too have experienced it. Even more interestingly, they then don’t even go into it too much, as somehow, they too know that I have just understood it, that it is been heard – not their words, but their story has been heard.
 
As a homeopath, we go beyond the words that come out of our client’s mouth. We listen to the story that they are trying to convey to us. It’s important to note here, that the story that one tells through their words, is not always necessarily the story that those actual words are narrating. For example, “I got bit by a dog” is not saying, “I got bit by a dog”, its saying so much more than that. There is fear, there is anger, there is worry, there is pain. Sometimes, not all those feelings can be expressed into words, but each sits in our eyes, in our fidgeting, in our expressions, in our body language; but most importantly it is felt through the invisible connection that our energies make.
 
When we sit with our crying child in our arms, we try to sooth them, but we also try to “listen in” to what she is quietly conveying to us: the loud bang was painful to my ears, the loud bang caused a disturbance in my soul, the loud bang left me shaking and unsettled, I feel scared, I feel unsure, I feel worried, I feel too much that I do not know how to cope with... And we, the mother, in turn in our cuddles and warm embrace, in our soft soothing humming, addresses to all those silent cries, not just the vocal one.
 
When someone says “I never cry”, they are not saying that they have never experienced sadness, or grief or they have nothing to cry for or about in their life. No, it is actually the very opposite. There is grief, its silent grief. They are “salted over” in grief, they cannot release those “salty thoughts” through salty tears…
 
These examples above though, are still not based on personal insight, rather just from the general homeopathic perspective. Personal connection goes even a step further than this. When a person tells one a story, and they have lived a similar experience then the listener knows not just of the obvious emotions said, or disclosed but even the very subtle and deep ones that only one who has lived said experience can know.
 
If for example a person feels betrayed by a close loved one, they may feel like they have been “stabbed in the back” or “stabbed straight up right in the heart” by that person, there may be shock and horror, anger and hatred, sorrow and grief, emotions which can be picked up quite strongly, but there are some other ones deep hidden under the layers of these stronger ones, a longing to undo the betrayal, a sympathy to forgive the betrayal, a hatred of oneself, a pain that pangs through your heart which simultaneously wants to forgive and forget but also cannot forgive and forget, a battle of feelings which do not really have words; all you know is that there is pain, a lot of it. Feelings which muddy with each other and overflow and overwhelm your whole existence. You feel let down by that person, by yourself, for allowing this to happen, for putting so much trust and hope and expectations on the other person, on your relationship, and you end up with a broken heart that bleeds pure agonising pain. Now no matter what may happen, no matter how much apology, no matter how much regret and remorse may come to mend it, that heart can never go back to being the same again. Even if its “brokenness” were to mend, the scar can never go away, it will always remain as a reminder to never trust and open your heart in that way to anyone ever again…
 
Some people might react by putting up a wall around their heart, others may react by reclusing into oneself, another by hating their ownself and blaming themselves, feeling that they are the wrong doer that they deserved to be treated in this way because they are not good enough causing them to be remorseful of themselves. And sometimes they can go through all of these actions and end up in a dark space of depression where life no longer feels worth living and suicide and/or self-harm the only road visible in this dark never-ending night. Only one who has slummed so low themselves can understand the true torture and torment of the soul from the moment of betrayal through to the steps proceeding suicide. The dark thoughts that haunt these broken souls can remain unsaid in a company who has experienced the same and yet still be heard.
 
The inexperienced often think that you can spot a depressed soul a mile out, but actually, to the surprise of most, most that bite that bullet shock the world as to their state. Many suicide deaths could not have been seen coming, why, because with most you cannot tell that they are depressed and in such a dark space. Smiles beam from their brave faces, kindness drips from there essences and colour encompasses and cloaks their minds darkness. They may even eat “normally”.
 
You see we have some stereotypical images of depression, and where those impressions may also hold true, they are not the only image of depression. Because why one gets dragged into depression makes a big difference. Our actions, our body’s “breakdown” all disclose our story. Most of us have a very Allopathic view of illnesses. You see, Allopathy, busies itself with just the illness, but homeopathy wants to listen into why and it does so by understand each person’s individual symptoms.


Everyone experience “high blood pressure” say, in a slightly different way, or “diabetes” or in the above case, depression. What has led one on to that road, determines how that “illness” plays out within us; for it is not the “illness” that ails us, but the happening in our timeline that led us to it that actually ails us. It is not the gallstones that we need to be “cured” from, but that in our life that made us so “bitter”.
 
When I hear “gallstones” I immediately think “bitterness” then I start thinking about all the emotions and events related to their timeline that could have led them down the path to bitterness; it is these emotions and these events that need addressing to “address” the gallstones.
 
How we think, what we experience, how we feel, how we interpret, process, understand and deal with life all mould our being and make us who we are. We are all unique and individual, no two people are the same, no two person’s stories are the same, no two people will live and come out of life in the same way.
 
Why we experience things, why we get connected with the individuals we do, how we know what we know, how we learn what we learn, how we communicate and how we know how and what we communicate and more, are all part of the hidden knowledge that Allah SWT, alone only has. What our life and our journey through life is meant to bring to us, to others and this world we will never fully know; we can try all we want to capture and understand and explain, but all we will end up with is mere snippets of this puzzle. Allah Alone is The All Knowing, All Planning, All Seeing, All Controlling, All Creating, The EverLiving and Eternal, Rabbil Aalameen. HE Alone Knows what and who we are, what when and who we need and how we need it.
Subhan Allah! Alhumdulillah! Allah-o-Akber!
Allah-o-Akber! Allah-o-Akber! Allah-o-Akber
Oh Allah, I submit.
I submit to you Allah and all your plans for me, indeed you are The All Knowing and The Best and Only True Planner; please guide me in the best way that only You know how.

Like everything in life, in nature, is a slow transformation, so too is the case with your “health”. We do not suddenly become ill. Even when we catch a cold suddenly, even when we have an accident unexpectedly, nothing happens actually instantaneously; as much as an accident may occur over a split second, what actually led one to that accident transpired over a period of time that was longer and from well before that split second. Things don’t just go wrong. Like I have said before in my Lightning Bolt Phenomenon post, lightning does not just fall randomly anywhere, we send out the signals first, we attract and the response comes from the “universe”.
 
Thus just like, several things lead us to a situation, develop and unfold, or reveal an “illness”, there too must be several steps taken to then address said “illness”. Change “positive” or “negative” happens over a period of time, how long each period is or will be, no one can really know. Sometimes, things add up one at a time in the background and then bang a small thing triggers an event which causes the outward change, but in truth, the last addition was not what was the sole cause of the event, no matter how much it may seem so, it was just the straw that finally broke the camel’s back, but it is not the straw that is actually the reason, it is all of everything else that lead up to and transpired before the straw came into play that caused the straw to be able to have the impact that it did. In the same way, with “healing”, sometimes, one remedy can start the chain reaction needed to unravel the energy trapped with us, and it is enough, no other thing is necessary to instigate change, however, many times, because our lives are so complex, we need several remedies given strategically to instigate any change. Sometimes clients say, oh you gave me this and this and this, but it didn’t do anything at all, and then when you gave me this, this is the one which only helped a little, all the rest were “rubbish” just give me more of that again don’t give me anything else.
 
Well, firstly all I can say to that is, I’m glad the last one helped, but how can we really be sure that the other’s didn’t do anything? The straw and the camel also apply here too. Sometimes, we need to prime the situation before so that the straw can then come into play, if we only relied on the straw on its own, it likely may not have much impact, or at least have much less impact than it does when given after the other apparent “inert” ones.
 
The issue is, we are always in a rush, always looking for quick fixes, too quick to judge and move on. We need to slow down and give things their due time and respect. Just because we are hungry and have a full plate of food in front of us does not mean we open our mouths and pour it all in at once down our throats! That would not “fix” our hunger now would it! No, the food needs to be eaten in small bites and each bite chewed and swallowed properly before the next bite can be taken; and even with that there is an etiquette, we start from the part of food closest to us and work our way around the plate systematically not just eat through the meal haphazardly like we do not know what we are doing.
 
A homeopath is trying to create a dialogue with your being, with your vital force. When you visit the first time, they hear what you are telling them, they respond, then you have to come back and “talk” some more and then they “respond” again accordingly. That is the only way a "dialogue" can be formed, otherwise you are not having a conversation with them, rather only just said “hi” and moved on.

A morning hello to a stranger on the street is not going to “heal you”, deep meaningful conversations build on trust will; whether the conversation is a real conversation or the above metaphoric, either way, it is all dependant on our connections. The deeper, stronger and bigger our connection is to something, anything, the more impact it has on our lives, its simple common sense really if you think about it, nothing mystical and elusive about it.
 
I reach out and make the connections with the people who are important to me, with the people whom I want to have impacts upon and from in my life; it’s up to you to reach out and form connections with the people you want to have connections, thus impacts with and from.
 
As a homeopath however, I don’t check in after my clients, reminding them of follow ups; they know where I am, they know how to reach me. And that is not because I do not care about them or value them and all that they bring, rather because it is up to them if they want to have a connection with me, it is up to them to want to heal, and up to them if they choose to include me in their healing journeys.

“Healing” is not only a journey, but also a choice! No one can "heal" you, except you, because "healing" is something that happens on the inside, on a subconscious soul level; you have got to actually want to "heal" yourself for "healing" to ever take place.

Some of us, become too attached to our illnesses, we start identifying with them; we actually, despite our complaints of our ailments, do not want to part from them as strange as it may sound. Because believe it or not, illnesses are not actually our enemy, they are a part of us, they are us communicating with ourselves, subconscious to conscious; and deep down somewhere we know this. We know that our illnesses are telling our story, and we at some deep level, do not want to let go of them because we have become too "attached" to them and our story.
 
What we need to understand is that “healing” will not change our story, it will not dampen it, or take anything away from it. It will not “change” us. Healing is a journey of recognising our story, learning from it and growing from it and allowing our next chapters not to be cocooned by our previous. By “healing” from our experiences, we cannot change those experiences nor the impact that they had upon us when they happened; by “healing” from them what we are allowing to do is, show that we are much more than those experiences, that those experiences cannot define us nor restrain us, we are choosing to live on despite them and not be imprisoned by them.

It’s like a scar, when we fall over and cut ourselves on the knee and begin to bleed, we do not sit there by the road side being engulfed and paralysed by the bleeding; no we wipe off the blood and pick ourselves up and carry on, allowing the cut to seal itself and scar over. Over time we may even forget that that happened and that we have a scar; we do not let our life be revolved around the scar, or incident. Sometime later we may even catch sight of the scar again and perhaps recall what happened but again we will remember it fleetingly and then move on.
 
We have to look at our “bigger” “illnesses/ailments” in the same way.

They are not there to be dwelled on, and neither for that matter is our life or our “story”. We need to learn to treat life like the road side trip-up, address it, treat it and them move on. The more we hold on to things the longer they stick around, going stale and mouldy, giving off a foul stench and making us “ill” from it.
 
Life brings you lessons to learn and grow from, not “destroy” you with. If a human being can fully recover from a near fatal accident, where not only every major bone in their body was broken, but it was also advised for by the doctors to have the machines switched off as they are looking like to be most likely "brain dead" - then are we not underestimating our ability to heal??
 
If you are standing here today, then is that not proof in itself that whatever you have faced in your life you have overcome it! As the old saying goes: whatever does not kill you, only makes you stronger! So whatever it is that you may have faced in your life, you got through it!! You got over it, you defeated it. It is time to brush yourself off and pick yourself up and walk away from it. You are not the conquered, but the conqueror!

And if you are standing here today in the middle of sh*t, feeling like you are drowning in it, then work through it one piece at a time; with each piece you address, with each puzzle you solve, you release the pressure it may have been mounting on you today.

Remember: with each unravelling strain, you reduce the impact of the straw; and hunger is not “fixed” with a landslide of food going down your throat, it is addressed one bite at a time…
 


And don’t forget to chew on it ;)

Lots of people nowadays have weight targets, health goals, lifestyle ambitions etc. so that they can “live better” …  ...When?  ?? I mean seriously, when?

When will you “live better”.
 
We are too obsessed, through no fault of our own, with if we have “good” health, “good” weight, “good” toned body; then and only then, we believe we can be able to “live better”, live “healthier”; and by that one mostly infers to not having any “diseases”. We believe diseases to be the culprit, diseases to be our enemy, what robs our “health”, robs our “vitality”, robs our “life”. But we could not be further from the truth!!
 
Diseases are not “foreign” or an enemy at all…
 
We live in so much fear of diseases, but in reality, it is not the disease, but the fear which is the enemy. We have it all wrong…. 
 
It's is our lack of living, not lack of “health” that robs us; it is actually us under that mask, that is robbing us, no one else. Like I said health is not a target to achieve. Actually in truth, it does not even exist in of itself… it's a mirage, an illusion, a concept that is making our life but a paradox. We are running away from the truth, chasing after an illusion and fooling only ourselves; but worse of all, losing ourselves, our life, our hopes and desires in the process of wanting to achieve a “fabled magic key” with which we wish to unlock the very thing we are losing in the process of trying to gain said fabled entity.
 
All we have to do is stop and look around us, life does not begin after any said point, life is happening right now! You are “living” it; but sadly in most cases we are not actually “living it”, rather letting it run through our hands as we run in a never ending rat race on a hamster wheel!
 
GET OFF THE WHEEL!
 
If you don’t get off now, eventually when you will “fall off” of it, you will realise that not only where you on a train to nowhere, but in anticipation of what can be, or can come from this chase, you have lost all that already is and was.
 
Don’t be another “loser” who looks back thinking what have I done, what have I lost, when did I “live” in that life that just flew by me… stop and start living today, now! Life is, only and only every can be, in the now. There is nothing either side of now. No one can reach into "time" either side of now, it does not exist. It is a promise, that isn’t promised! A faint and weak dream that cannot stretch into today. You are on a path to nowhere surrounded by void, in fact, it is not even a path at all, if you look closely you will find that you are actually standing still, it is life actually that is moving and happening around you! Yes you can reach out and touch this life as it danced around you, you can take from it what you want as it presents itself in front of you, but actually you cannot keep any of it with you! Not even your memories if it does not want you to. So don’t be under any illusions, there is no such thing as your life. There is life and there is you, you are placed inside of life for a limited time, experience it as you may, make the most of it for as long as you have the opportunity, but don’t get fooled into thinking that Life exists for you. You are but a visitor, don’t make yourself too comfort, for your ride is very soon coming to an end; no amount of health, wealth, power, or control can or will ever change when your ejector seat is going to get pulled.
 
 
So I come back to the point of when are you going to live your life, this “good healthy life” that you keep telling yourself that is going to happen??
 
I am not saying that one should not be mindful of what they are eating and doing with there life, that they should become a sloth. No, you are human being’ you are designed to live life like a human, not a sloth, or a pig, or a bee. Don’t let your life mimic any of an animal's, Allah has designed you to be human, He has destined for you to be a human so be a human; live life like a human. Human’s have been designed to have the power to "think", a trait that animal’s do not have. Animals, live, feel, react, recall even, but their “thinking” capacity is not like that of a human beings, they cannot formulate abstract thought like a human can. This is why Allah SWT calls us Ashraful Makhluqat – the noblest creation, the crown of creation.
 
We have been sent down to earth for a higher purpose than to just eat, breathe, excrete! Look beyond your body. We do not get sick because of our bodies, we get sick because we are not living properly, our soul is not living properly, our soul is not fulfilling its life journey properly. Food is a means to get energy for our body to run on, our body is the tool through which our soul is to experience its life’s journey through. We spend so much time and attention on our bodies, yet neglect to give attention to our souls. I say this again, we are not our bodies, we are a soul “trapped” inside of a physical body.
 
If we want to experience true health, if we want to “live” life in “good health”, it is not our bodies we need to focus our energy on, but our soul. Don’t spend hours in the gym, spend the hours exploring the health of your soul; don’t exhaust your mind with calories, nourish your spirituality; don’t set health/fitness goals and targets, increase your giving. Give from your heart your wealth, time, wisdom, love, care, energy and prayers.
 
Kindness and Compassion are not acts, but a state of one’s heart, a state of a healthy heart and a healthy heart reflects a healthy soul…

“Writer's block”, a phrase which is often thrown around, but was is it? Is it a disease, a syndrome, what causes it?
 
Well, in my opinion, there is no such thing as “writer’s block”. Why? Because in my opinion, there is no such thing as a “writer”, or rather there shouldn’t be any such thing as a “writer”. “Writing” is not a profession, it's not a career; it's something to do, it's a tool. Anyone can and does write: the kid in class two up the road writes, the man down at the post office writes, the lady at the mayor's office writes. Anyone and everyone who has been taught how to write words (in any language), writes. It's like saying I use a knife to cut my veg so I am a “Knifer”.
No, I'm not.
 
My point being, the issue is not with writing, the issue is identifying with and restricting one to a tool. One can Author many books and be called an Author yes, but the trouble is, when we let ourselves be defined by an act.
 
The real reason for the “syndrome” known as “writer’s block” is because we have nothing to say; and the main issue is, we are too hell bent in thinking that we have to say something.
 
Well, the truth of the matter is, we need to first experience something within ourselves, within our souls for it to be able to want to say it. And we cannot experience anything if we do not live. Speech is a tool to express our inner feelings, experiences, thoughts and imagination. When one suffers from “writer's block syndrome”, it's not words we have run out of, it's the flow of speech which has nothing left to run off of. Life is the fuel needed for expression. Writing should never be at the centre stage in your life, your Life itself should always be at the centre stage.
 
When we make writing our centre stage and begin to identify with it, we let our words become us and not the means to express us. We force ourselves to want to create something out of nothing. So, writer's block is actually not an inability to write, but our inability to see ourselves past our writings. Our writings are not us, only inspirations that our life has brought to us which we have penned…
 
And this article, an inspiration that my life brought to me…
Much love